Into the Fade – Savannah Bishop

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Image: Savannah Bishop, Untitled, (detail), monoprint, 2014

April 10th – 13th, 2014
Opening reception: Thursday April 10th,  7-9 pm
Artist talk: Thursday April 10th, 2pm

Dealing with any sort of change has always been a challenging feat for me. It’s almost as if I act like a child throwing a tantrum when I can’t accept something new or different in my life. I think what disturbs me is the idea of something changing, and then over time, forgetting what it was like before. It fades out as you fade into something new, and years down the road, you may never remember that thing that you lost in the first place. With the change, comes the fear of losing a memory.

Into the Fade is about my fear of change and the loss of memory. I have set out to confront my fear by creating works that will adjust without control; something I have never been able to do before. In many cases, flowers can represent important events in a person’s life, ones which we might like to remember and hold on to. These works are meant to show the disappearance of the memories or feelings associated with something as simple as a flower or plant, while also displaying the little control we have over inevitable change. They will fade and fall apart over time and leave little trace that they ever existed.

One reason this body of work has become so heart-rending for me is because of what I fear may be my own future. My grandfather was diagnosed with Alzheimer’s and Dementia years ago and since then I have learned that it is a genetic disease. I have watched for years as he has gradually forgotten who I am and who he is. Knowing that my future could be the same as his is a hurdle that I am not sure I will be able to overcome. I often wonder though, if when the memory fades, will I remember I’ve lost something? Is it important to fear the loss if you won’t know what you’ve lost when the time comes? Or is it better to forget? These are all questions I have been asking myself throughout this body of work and some of the decisions I have made about each piece have reflected this.

No single work in this show is finished. They are all made of materials that will continue to decay and decompose over time. The rate of decay may slow, but in the end they will always be changing. It will always be important to keep those memories from the past. Throughout any changes that I may have in my life, I will do my best to hold on to what was there before, but in the mean time, it is important to accept what is happening, and prepare myself for what I may not be able to control in the future.